Hello everyone. It’s Veronica. It’s B.E.’s Season – filling our silent nights of December for almost 20 years with his amazing B.E. Taylor Christmas Concert. I felt today being DEC 1st an appropriate time to check in. It’s been almost 4 months since I lost the love of my life. I can barely breath at times. I just want him back. On
Oct 29th of this year it would have been our 34th anniversary. I miss Bill (B.E.) every second of the day. And now with the holidays upon us; it’s killing me.
He was the best husband, father, & friend. His family meant everything to him. I’ve been with him since I was 22 years old. I don’t know how to be on my own and not have him by my side. He was my world and we were one. When he died part of me went with him.
I want to thank you all for the wonderful messages of sympathy. The memories you all have of him and what he, his music, and his Christmas Concert mean to each of you inspires me. He lives on through his music and our kids B.C. & Tahnee and they too are hurting so much.
Maybe most of you didn’t know but Bill was diagnosed with a Stage 3 inoperable malignant tumor in May of 2007. He lived with this for almost 10 years. At first, it was the worst news in the world. I felt like we were in a movie – the saddest love story ever. But his faith and positive attitude along with finding the right therapies, doctors, etc., he NEVER missed anything –he continued to perform, played basketball, lived and loved his life. He was amazing, so funny, so loving, a smile that would light up a room, and so alive. He was in remission for several years.
Unfortunately, in the later part of 2015 the tumor was growing back and was aggressive. But even in the midst of this devastating news, he still performed his Christmas Tour in 2015 and he was amazing. We sought out the best treatment in early 2016 and we really had faith and hoped we’d beat it again. He was doing well. He did his Valentine’s show in FEB of 2016 and then in the summer we traveled to see Tahnee in Texas and finally got to see Beatles Love in Vegas with B.C. in July 2016. Bill was so happy and loved the show – he was such a Beatles fan. We were planning the 2016 Christmas Tour and taking one day at a time.
On August 4th he received his normal treatment, we went out to dinner, had coffee, laughed and enjoyed the day. We came home that evening talked to B.C. for an hour or so then went to bed. He was singing to me in bed – “I’ll follow the Sun by George Harrison.” He sang it to me two times and said I just love this song. The Beatles, he said, would always write short catchy songs and you would want to listen to them over and over again. He got up to go to the bathroom, which he normally did – he sneezed so I got up to give him an allergy pill and when I went into the restroom he was sitting there and he told me he couldn’t see and I panicked and said oh Bill. He tried to say something to me and then just collapsed. I frantically called 911 and they came immediately. He never regained consciousness after that. He was life-flighted to UPMC Shadyside. I didn’t leave his side and stayed in his bed with him for 3 days holding and kissing him, and we were surrounded by our family and close friends. We prayed for a miracle, sang, and talked to him continuously. But he had a cerebral hemorrhage from the pressure of the tumor and on August 7th at 5:35 p.m. he went to Heaven. Now in retrospect, I believe when he was singing to me “I’ll Follow the Sun” he meant I’ll follow the Son of God.
I wanted you all to know that B.E. lived up to the minute he passed on and I know he knew we were by his side the entire time. My heart is completely shattered and I really don’t know or even want to live in this life without him. He was a light in a dark world who gave of himself so freely. He B.E.lieved – His talent was enormous but he was so humble and kind. He left us with a legacy that will live in our hearts forever. His music will be with us for a lifetime and the messages in each of his songs; a blessing to us all in so many ways. He’d want us to “GIVE THANKS” for the simple things in life that mean the most, God, family, faith, and friends. We “WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER” this incredible and magnificent man. “LOVE NEVER FAILS” and there are no goodbyes – just “I’ll see you later.” I can’t wait to see him again. He was my lover, soul mate, best friend, business partner, and I WOULD LOVE HIM ALL OVER, AND OVER AGAIN.
B.E. Taylor is the VOICE OF CHRISTMAS. No one can ever duplicate, replicate, or replace this unbelievably talented man. Maybe in the future we will all come together in some fashion to celebrate his amazing life. But until then – I know right now He would be telling me and us all to FEEL THE LOVE OF CHRISTMAS not only during the holidays but all year round.
I love you B.E. Taylor and always will.
May God Bless each of you.
